Yesterday I did something out of character, and wrote an extremely personal post on Facebook.
It was prompted by the fact that yesterday marked 4 years since my Mom passed away.
I was incredibly nervous to press that submit button and put it out there for all of the internetz to see, but I’m glad I did it.
As it turns out I have an amazing network of family, friends, colleagues, acquaintances, and strangers. My heart is bursting with gratitude from all the likes, comments, messages, thoughts & prayers people sent my way after taking the time to read the post.
Loss is a universal feeling and considering that yesterday was also Memorial Day it seemed to me that a lot of people may have also been feeling loss just as acutely as I was.
Sometimes sharing your feelings and getting support & positivity back can be more healing than being strong and silent.
I don’t typically write super personal posts on Facebook, but this is one, so please feel free to keep scrolling through your news feed.
May is always a difficult month for myself and my family.
We experienced an overwhelming day of joy on May 15th, 2010 when my sister got married. However, only 48 hours later my mom was in the hospital and we were receiving the news that there was nothing more the doctors could do for her battle against lung cancer.
Last week would have been my parent’s 30th wedding anniversary.
Today, 4 years ago, I lost my best friend; my confidant; my mom.
While I don’t find myself consumed with the sadness I felt the first few years she was gone, there have been moments that she’s missed in all our lives that bring those feelings flooding back, and some days where I can’t seem to think of anything but her. Sometimes you just need to let yourself feel things fully instead of trying to push them aside because once you give into it the feelings finally pass. Grief is something that lingers in us, and it doesn’t ever go away. You just find a new normal.
For me, this is a day that I’m feeling things fully, and I know that it will pass.
Here in the US, today is Memorial day. A day we choose to remember those brave men and women in the Armed Forces that we’ve lost.
So many of us may be feeling this sadness so acutely today as we remember those who meant so much to us, who are no longer here.
We all know to well that life does go on, yet it’s also okay if some days it hurts just as much as it did the first day.
On this day of remembrance, I will remember my Mom. I will also remember those YOU have lost as well.
Thinking of you all today, and please know that my heart is with you.
—The photo above was taken just 11 days before she lost her battle with lung cancer. This is the last photo of my Mom & I snapped on May 15, 2010 at my sister’s wedding.—
Now on to my workout check-in for last week. Even though Amanda over at Run To the Finish has decided to put the #bestfoot linkup on hold for now I’m stilling to call this my #bestfoot check-in because she’s inspired me with that hashtag ever since last fall when I signed up for Holiday Bootie Buster Challenge aka HBBC.
|Monday 5/19||Rest day||0:00:00||0.00|
|Friday 5/23||Walking – Cut short from rain||44:38||2.28|
- What did your workouts look like this week?
- Do you ever write super personal posts on Facebook?